On my healing journey it seems like there is a never ending amount of issues that come up. As soon as you have dealt with one trauma the next one bares it's head. When will it end? Who knows...... Is this a life long process? I know fear/anxiety is probably the biggest stumbling block in … Continue reading Peeling the onion
It's my Uncle's 70th birthday today and I was planning to go to his party. Then..... Social Anxiety rears it's ugly head! Half an hour before I'm to leave the anxiety just hits me out of nowhere. Self doubt about my ability to be sociable and not appear so awkward. That's where my thoughts go … Continue reading Social Anxiety we meet again
The form of self harm I've used most over the years is getting tattoos. A part of me enjoys the pain. It's a way to express my inner rage. I would rather turn it in on myself than hurt others. I have 13 tattoos in total. If I had money I would most probably get … Continue reading Self Harm, Tattoos and Depression
Social Anxiety struggles and Panic Attacks continue to plague me. I was meant to go to another interview today but on my way there I experienced a panic attack which stopped me in my tracks. So I was a no show for the interview. Fear/Anxiety seems to be the biggest stumbling block in my life. … Continue reading Interview Fail – Social Anxiety/Panic
As I have mentioned before I have been in and out of therapy for the past 16 years. This experience in learning about myself has made me very self aware which I suppose is a good thing. Well, that's what my therapist, friends, and family think. Self Awareness alone is not going to change my … Continue reading Self Awareness, is it enough?
Being around people with angry energies is really difficult for me. I have been bullied a lot during my life and doubt that I will be able to stand up for myself. I don't even know if bullies realize the pain they are inflicting on others. Words hurt! Sarcastic comments aimed to hurt others are … Continue reading Fear of Bullying
My emotions seem to have power over me and control my life. Anxiety/Fear is my cross to bear in this life. I'm sick of moaning about it. I don't want pity, sympathy or advice. I want to live. I want to be able to function and live a meaningful life. It was my Aunties 70th … Continue reading Social Anxiety/Panic Attack rant