As a teenager I had very low self-esteem and wasn't very good at standing up for myself. Therefore I was an easy target for bullies to have their way with me because they knew I wouldn't fight back. A lot of the rage I carry around with me is unexpressed anger in response to these … Continue reading Rage in Response to Trauma
As I have mentioned before I have been in and out of therapy for the past 16 years. This experience in learning about myself has made me very self aware which I suppose is a good thing. Well, that's what my therapist, friends, and family think. Self Awareness alone is not going to change my … Continue reading Self Awareness, is it enough?
When I observe my own thoughts I have noticed how much they are projections of my own insecurities. For example, when I come into contact with people I seem to be assuming or mind reading that they are judging me negatively. Like the world revolves around me and all their thoughts and reactions are based … Continue reading Negative Thought Patterns and CBT
I've been TRAUMATISED by Bullying. It still effects my life on a daily basis. FEAR of being laughed at, ridiculed, teased, and verbally abused. It's not all in my head! It's real. The torment I have been through is real.
Being around people with angry energies is really difficult for me. I have been bullied a lot during my life and doubt that I will be able to stand up for myself. I don't even know if bullies realize the pain they are inflicting on others. Words hurt! Sarcastic comments aimed to hurt others are … Continue reading Fear of Bullying
The effects of bullying can leave emotional scars that run deep into our psyche. Everyday I still carry those scars and I'm ever vigilant and weary of potential bullies. Those bullying experiences fuel my social anxiety. Some people say I should just get over it or let it go and focus on the present. I … Continue reading Bullying and Social Anxiety