Update

It's been a while since last post. I'm doing pretty well in general. I've been employed for the past 2 years now which has been great. 4 months into a new role and have been promoted to Senior Practitioner. Enjoying it so far but definitely has its challenges. My personal development and that of my …

Impasse/Burnout

So....I know it's been a long time since I last posted. Unplugging myself from the blogging world. I've been busy with work. Also when I'm doing well (able to hold down a full time job) I tend to lose interest in writing and become more extroverted. It's only when I'm either depressed or in a …

Woman Troubles

I started talking with this girl in my class and we seemed to hit it off from the start. We have been chatting via messenger quite a bit as well. Anyway last night she tells me she has a partner. We've mutually decided to stop talking with each other but I miss her. I can't …

Lifestyle/Career

So I've completed my placement. I recently went to two interviews for the same job but ended up not getting the job. They told me they would get back to me yesterday but I didn't hear from them at all. I thought they would have had the common courtesy of an email informing me of …

Emotional

I feel so sad and empty inside. Feeling deeply is hard work. I want to cry but no tears are coming. Maybe just being with my sadness and allowing myself to feel will help. It's a familiar process with my emotional healing. Knowing what to do doesn't make it any easier. Each time it's as …

Update

Over the last few months I haven't been posting much. I tend to go through periods of engaging and then taking a step back. My mood and general wellness has steadily improved which I'm grateful for. Lithium has really helped me with being a lot more stable. I'm back at Uni next week which I'm …

Peeling the onion

On my healing journey it seems like there is a never ending amount of issues that come up. As soon as you have dealt with one trauma the next one bares it's head. When will it end? Who knows...... Is this a life long process? I know fear/anxiety is probably the biggest stumbling block in …

Group Therapy

The last couple weeks of group have been quite challenging. I find myself being triggered very easily and reacting with anger. At our most recent sitting I called out one of the guys and went on to tell him that he annoyed me. The problem was that in doing so I was expressing the message …

Dealing with Rage in a Healthy Way

I'm really irritable today. I'm finding it really difficult to focus or concentrate on anything for longer than 10 minutes at a time. It's the underlying rage that I've talked about in past posts. Recently it seems like my rage is quite pronounced. A lot more than usual anyway. The main thing I put it …

Rage in Response to Trauma

As a teenager I had very low self-esteem and wasn't very good at standing up for myself. Therefore I was an easy target for bullies to have their way with me because they knew I wouldn't fight back. A lot of the rage I carry around with me is unexpressed anger in response to these …