My experience of hypomania; grandiose, overly confident, reckless, impulsive, aggressive, no shame, “life of the party”, hyperactive, and lack of sleep. Combine this state with alcohol and you’ve got a recipe for self-destruction. I won’t go into detail about what I’ve done over the years while combining prescription med’s and alcohol but, suffice to say I’m very lucky to have avoided jail.
Last year I had a hypomanic episode that lasted around 3 months. I was drinking heavily during this time and was living dangerously. I was working full time and coping alright during the day at work but outside of work on my down time I was all over the place. Driving recklessly, drink driving, and even started smoking cigarettes to try and cope. My destructive behavior finally caught up with me and I got caught drink driving and lost my license for 6 months.
A friend of mine was also in the late stages of brain cancer which had a big impact on my mental state. When he finally passed away in early May that lead me out of hypomania and crashing back down into depression and anxiety. I managed to keep working for about a month after he passed away but eventually it all became too much and I resigned and started receiving welfare. I did manage to go back and work another couple months of 2018 but come November I was back on welfare again and have been on it ever since.
I’m sharing these experiences to help give a face to hypomania and Bipolar 2. I take full responsibility for my actions and don’t use my illness as an excuse for my behavior. Let’s hope that I’ve learned my lesson and don’t go down that rocky road to self-destruction again.